A veces…


SSLM. A todos nos ha pasado en más de una ocasión. Al menos a mí, desde luego. Me refiero a esas mañanas en las que te levantas… y tienes un día de NO. Que, a veces, pasa.

A veces, entre juegos en la alfombra con Pipeke y sus marionetas, y conversaciones en la cocina con Guille, a veces, me siento un poco sola.

A veces me imagino que soy otra persona… una persona solitaria. No es que quien soy no me guste, no… es que quien soy tiene demasiada imaginación.

A veces me imagino que no soy madre, y que mi vida es solo mía y de nadie más.

A veces me imagino paseando por la muralla de Lugo al anochecer, como antes, sin prisas… sola.

A veces me pregunto por qué todavía no he conseguido, en años y años de intentonas, que algún miembro de mi familia me acompañe a sacar la piragua del garaje y dar un paseo por la ría.

A veces me pregunto qué estaría haciendo de haber echado los papeles para irme a Guatemala en el 2010. ¿Con quién pasaría mis días? ¿Y dónde estaría ahora?

A veces me imagino que viajo sola. Que hago como un amigo con el que hablé hoy, que se fue a Alemania hace tiempo y ahora se ha cansado de los días oscuros: ha decidido que pasará el invierno viajando. “¿A dónde?“, pregunto, “a Londres, y de allí a Turquía, y luego no sé… ya veré”.

A veces me imagino que despierto cada mañana en una casa apartada del asfalto, de las ambulancias, de los camiones de la basura que me desvelan de madrugada y de los coches, los más madrugadores, los que tras el bibe de las 6 de la mañana no me dejan volver a dormirme, tan acostumbrada como estoy al sonido de la aldea de noche… al silencio.

A veces me imagino que tengo un sueldo cada mes… o mejor, que tengo una empresa pequeñita, mía.

A veces pienso que, cuando Pipeke crezca un poco, a lo mejor podemos coger la piragua e ir juntas a remar por la ría, con nuestros chalecos de color fostorito y un par de gorras, que el sol del mediodía es malo.

A veces pienso que viajar sola es genial, pero que viajar con Pipeke será mil veces mejor. Empezaremos por la muralla de Lugo, que aún no la conoce (qué vergüenza), y más adelante ya iremos a Turquía, a Londres y a Guatemala, y después, no sé… ya veremos.

A veces pienso en esa casa en la que quiero despertarme por las mañanas, esa que está lejos del asfalto… y su jardín está lleno de juguetes. Y tiene un tobogán.

Y es entonces cuando cojo las marionetas, me siento en la alfombra y sigo jugando con mi Pipeke, porque me acuerdo de aquello que me dijeron hace tiempo: que ser madre significa no estar sola nunca más.


Y eso es genial, aunque haya mañanas en las que me levante… y tenga un día de NO. Que, a veces, pasa.

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